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[Network; Video]

[A young man with violet-blue eyes, blue-black hair tucked away in a bun, dressed in green tabards with orange embroidery in somewhat organic patterns, over indigo tunics appears on the network. He solemnly tucks his hands into his sleeves, and bows toward the screen.]

Hello, Barge. My name is Ezra Bridger, and I recently arrived, as a warden. [A tiny pause, and only the momentary effort to put up a smooth, diplomatic front keeps him to wrinkling his nose a little, but one might perceive the hint of trepidation in his tone.] I haven't accepted a deal. At least not yet.

[He shakes his head slightly] Because I know there might be some here who at least know stories, I guess I should say that I am a Jedi Knight. Born at the same time as the rise of the Empire, on a planet named Lothal. I'm happy to answer any question anyone may have about that.[Some of the formality and calm even to his tone begins to fade.] But I haven't been in my home galaxy since I was 18, over three years ago, for me now.

I've traveled through several - I've taken to calling them nexuses? Experienced things rather like the floods and breaches, here, among other...well the last place I was called them Trials.

[His expression suddenly blossoms into a full, bright smile, as something occurs to him.] Oh! Are there any people here who do Jewish observances? I grew up Reform, in a life; I like to keep up with holidays when I can.

[A little more soberly-] And how well is the infirmary staffed? I have some medical training. Including mental health topics.
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[Action]

DECK - Anyone who knows anything about the Jedi won't be surprised to find him folded into crossed legged sitting on the floor of the deck, hands in green cloth gloves on his knees but palm up, and eyes closed, in meditation. Any psychic, or the like, may notice that his mind is open, yet attentive, letting everything he senses flow around and through him.

Although - If someone's attention lingers on him for long, or he picks up a sense of urgency, he murmurs, without opening his eyes, yet, "Can I help you?"

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ENCLOSURE - Of course there's also lightsaber practice in the Enclosure, in varying landscapes, on different days, with his green blade. Anyone who knows much about Jedi lightsaber forms might notice Ezra's personal style is a core of Form III, with some Form IV, and Form I - in other words, a mostly defensive style. Anyone very familiar with the styles of Obi-Wan Kenobi, Anakin Skywalker, or Ahsoka Tano might spot some specific influences.

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From:

artistinexile

Perhaps. I too was faced with a series of fewer and fewer choices. I chose the quickest, most decisive path to victory. I knew your empathy, your morals would be the linchpin that an entire battle would rest upon. Is it any wonder why I exploited it? As for the Death Star, you truly have not been paying attention if you believed I felt it either inevitable or anything I would go along with willingly.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

No, I didn't mean the Death Star, or not directly. You said you *had* had no intention of destroying Lothal, but it seemed inevitable then. I remember that very clearly.

Although, also, yes, now that you bring it up. The Death Star. Why was even a whiff of that project not a break point for you? You talk like you couldn't walk away, but I don't understand. You're one of the smartest people I know. You're not even *from* Imperial space. Why was disappearing not an option?

Why couldn't you have said 'no, I won't be part of this' way before you got that point? I honestly thought for a long time that you had to be a true believer in the Empire. It was the only thing that made sense to me.

From:

artistinexile

While I appreciate your belief in my ability to survive a betrayal of that magnitude, I could not walk away. Nor would I wish to. The answer you are looking for is not simple, nor do I believe you will find it satisfying. What do you consider a true believer in the Empire, Ezra Bridger?

From:

ezra_of_lothal

I'd admit, I don't have a great definition. There's probably several stripes.

I don't think you embraced the Empire for purely personal self-aggrandizement. Although, that type isn't what I'd call a true believer.

There's those that fall for the Emperor's cult of personality.

I guess what I mean in a belief that Empire is *just*. Or at least the best way to rule a huge swath of the galaxy, or truly necessary, out of the alternatives. Maybe again, to return to that word, inevitable?

And I would define the Empire, loosely, as concentrating power into the hands of a few, through a rigid hierarchy that is ever increasingly focused on military power, using that power to both expand outwardly and terrorize its own people to maintain control.

From:

artistinexile

Perhaps this is where a portion of personal and galactic history intertwine. I did not believe the Empire was ever a force for justice. But I know that there are worse threats, even now encroaching on parts of our galaxy, that either the Old or the New Republic had no hope of defeating. When faced with two evils, one significantly worse than the other, I chose to ally myself with the lesser evil. At the very least, the Empire is far quicker when dealing with threats and its heavy-handed methods, while overkill, certainly get the point across. And understand that I had no intention of joining the Empire when I first arrived. Being told I was to be made a Lieutenant was not in my plan when entering Imperial space.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

[Ezra puzzles over that response for a while. Worse threats than the Empire, that held trillions upon trillions in its grasp?

On the other hand, if there's one thing his travels have taught him, it's that there's always a bigger fish somewhere. But then, none the bigger fish he's ever come across would truly be best addressed by military might.]

I guess I'll have to provisionally try to accept this mysterious bigger threat, for at least the sake of the conversation. Although I'm really not convinced supporting the Empire as the best option follows, even with that in mind.

What *was* your plan, then?

Edited Date: 2024-08-09 03:48 pm (UTC)

From:

artistinexile

To remain on my exiled planet until I could seek an audience with the Emperor, then leverage my previous friendship with Anakin Skywalker to convince him it was in his best interests to let me study Republic and Imperial weaponry, and return to my corner of the galaxy. We would have let each other alone, with my species providing buffer space between the Empire's planets and the enemy I have mentioned, but with significant technological advantage. I was meant to stay perhaps a year, no longer.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

Ok, so far makes sense to me. Gather allies, exchange knowledge.

But Anakin probably didn't want to even acknowledge that he knew you, and a lot of his flexibility and willingness to listen how gone out the window, am I right?

So why stay?

From:

artistinexile

At what point should I have left? I came to the Emperor as a prisoner. He called me a gift.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

I can't truly say, because I wasn't there. Plenty of Imperial officers left. Admittedly, you stand out. I was told by someone I trust that an Inquistor got away, about ten years into the Empire, but I don't know how long she survived after that.

I know I'm coming across as judgmental. I'm sorry. I'm not stupid enough to think that if the Empire had found me before Kanan did, that I wouldn't have either died, or adapted and become one of them. I was lucky.

From:

artistinexile

Indeed. I could have left with my life, having nothing to show for it, and also left my team, my crew to fend for themselves. I found the idea abhorrent. Unlike plenty of Imperial officers, I took pains to know my subordinates, to cultivate and appreciate each of their unique talents. And I had a larger reason to survive: I needed to bring a message back to my people without being found out and killed. Imperial transmissions were easily tracked, and finding a signal strong enough when I was already suspect for not being human was a challenge I had difficulty in conquering. I began to realize I could start sending my own officers out to both Chiss and Rebel space. Doubtless a few of them are in your ranks now.

Edited Date: 2024-08-09 05:07 pm (UTC)

From:

ezra_of_lothal

[Huh.]

Interesting.

Well, now you're out. And if the Admiral usually lets up keep our memories of being here, I gather - not guaranteed, in other venues, by the way.

You have time. What will do with it?

From:

artistinexile

I will plan.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

An observation - I did a lot of that, when I first landed somewhere outside the galaxy. I won't say it was useless; I picked up a lot of skills and information.

I am not remotely doing now what I thought I would be doing, back then.

From:

artistinexile

What would you have me do, Warden Bridger?

From:

ezra_of_lothal

[Ezra isn't sure what to make of Thrawn going with Warden, when he specifically said his preferred title is Knight. But, Ezra supposes, he should get used to that title, too.]

Well, I don't think I'm telling you this *as* a warden - I'm not you're warden, after all - and I'm not sure how well this advice will land given you're a career soldier in a way I never was, and never wanted to be.

My suggestion is to try not to think of your tenure here as a military campaign? Or stay too focused on what you're going to do when you get out. I'm pretty sure we *all* could stand to learn from other perspectives and ways of life while we're here.

From:

artistinexile

You ask me what I will do here and yet your suggestion is not to ruminate on future ideas. I wonder how one is to graduate without taking into consideration any hope for a future. Regardless, if I am not to think of this as a military exercise, what shall I think instead? That the Barge is extended shore leave?

From:

ezra_of_lothal

Hope for *a* future is probably necessary. But where that future takes you may be beyond your wildest imagining, right now.

Are military campaign and shore leave really the only options, in your mind?

From:

artistinexile

How little you must think of my powers of imagination. You are not seriously suggesting I turn my pursuits to civilian matters?

From:

ezra_of_lothal

At the moment, you apparently can't imagine yourself in a non-military position.

Are Chiss strict caste by vocation or something else I'm missing?

From:

artistinexile

You have no idea what’s coming and I have no desire to engage in scenarios that will never happen. Regardless, my military expertise must be allowed to continue if my people and yours are to survive. If you wish me to be a scientist, a farmer, or a fisherman, it does not matter: if I am not ready, everyone will perish. That is the way of it. So I suggest you engage with a more useful topic.

From:

ezra_of_lothal

[Oh, Ezra doesn't need a hint from the Force to think breaches are gonna be...interesting for Thrawn. Or maybe not, maybe he'll just flatly reject those experiences.]

What I'm really suggesting is - your life here is also a life.

From:

artistinexile

If you have suggestions as to how I can best serve my people, I should like to hear them. However, I will not accept what so many here seem to do: run to other, less complicated parts of the galaxy and start a life free from previous obligations. I should rather like to stay here forever than to turn against those who need me by “living my life.” Do you understand?

Edited Date: 2024-09-09 01:09 am (UTC)